Some Favorite Quotations

Here are the first few of some of my favorite quotations I would like to share, in no particular order:

“So live your life that the fear of death can never enter your heart. Trouble no one about his religion; respect others in their views, and demand that they respect yours. Love your life, perfect your life, beautify all things in your life. Seek to make your life long and of service to your people. Prepare a noble death song for the day when you go over the Great Divide. Always give a word or sign in a lonely place. Show respect to all people, but grovel to none. When you arise in the morning give thanks for the light, for your life and strength Give thanks for your food and for the joy of living. If you see no reason for giving thanks, the fault lies in yourself. When your time comes to die, be not like those whose hearts are filled with fear of death, so that when their time comes they weep and pray for a little more time to live their lives over again in a different way. Sing your death song, and die like a hero going home.”

-Tecumseh

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If you hate a person, you hate something in him that is part of yourself. What isn't part of ourselves doesn't disturb us.

Hermann Hesse

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A loving person lives in a loving world. A hostile person lives in a hostile world: everyone you meet is your mirror.-

--Ken Keyes, Jr

There is only one corner of the universe you can be certain of improving and that is your own self.

-Aldous Huxley

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Better to light a candle than to curse the darkness.

-Ancient Chinese Proverb

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Your work is to discover your world and then with all your heart give yourself to it.

-Buddha

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Yea, verily, let your Will to Love burn eagerly toward this creation in yourselves of the true Life that rolls its waves across the shoreless sea of Time! Live not your petty lives in fear of the hours! The Moon and Sun and Stars by which ye measure Time are themselves but servants of that Life which pulses in you, joyous drum-beat as you march triumphant through the Avenue of the Ages. Then, when each birth and death of yours are recognized in this perception as mere milestones on your ever-living Road, what of the foolish incidents of your mean lives? Are they not grains of sand blown by the desert wind, or pebbles that you spurn with your winged feet, or grassy hollows were you press the yielding and elastic turf and moss with lyrical dances? To him who lives in Life naught matters: his is eternal motion, energy, delight of never-failing Change: unwearied, you pass on from aeon to aeon, from star to star, the Universe your playground, its infinite variety of sport ever old and ever new. All those ideas which bred sorrow and fear are known in their truth, and thus become the seed of joy: for you are certain beyond all proof that you can never die; that, though you change, change is part of your own nature: the Great Enemy is become the Great Ally.

--Aleister Crowley

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There is strong shadow where there is much light.

- Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

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We find comfort among those who agree with us - growth among those who don't.

-Frank A. Clark

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I will try to share some more over the next few days. I would like to hear some of your favorite quotes as well. This could be fun, feel free to leave your favorites using the comments link below.

Beauty

Ahhh..., the Beauty of the written Word. My last post reminded me of the deep reverence I’ve always felt for the Logos of humanity, the poetry and prose which exemplifies the Spirit of Man. Just for fun I think I’ll dig out some of my old notebooks and use this space over the next few days to share some of my favorite quotations which have always been a great source of inspiration for me………..See you soon.

Life Lessons

Chronic illness definitely forces one to be a bit more introspective. It’s a common aphorism, “that “everything happens for a reason”. I’ve often felt the need to attempt to understand what lessons the Holy Guardian Angel was trying to impart to me through this long battle with chronic illness? I’m a long way from having the definitive answers but was touched by the following quotes, which I recently found online from the beloved Ann Davies,



"Reexamine yesterday and recognize that everything that happened was a blessing beyond description. This is true whether you lost the love of your life, whether an illness left you disabled, your business failed, etc. It was a glorious experience because it was part of the process of becoming. Life is not static. It is coming through rough periods that brings you to glory and fulfillment. Without yesterday's sorrow you'd be incapable of tomorrow's joys. However, with some of us tomorrow's joys might take several incarnations to experience unless we get busy right now and make them our real tomorrows, which it is in our power to do. Remember that.

We must re-examine our reactions to yesterday, to the past, and affirm that the past has deepened the cup of our capacity to love. It gave us insight. It taught us how to walk instead of fall. It taught us how to see things we would not otherwise have seen. Therefore it was well worth it……”

Progress Has Slowed Down

Still enjoying golf, though my progress seems slow at times. There have been times when I haven’t had the energy to continue regular, consistent practice due to feeling ill, which I’m sure has slowed me up some, but I can see improvement which is the main thing. It’s definitely a challenge, which is a big part; I’m sure, of why golf never gets boring. Looking forward to this weekend when my wife, my Dad, and I will take part in a golf tournament :-) It’s a “Midnight Madness” tournament which means the last nine holes will be played at night with glow in the dark golf balls, should be great fun. The tournament is held at Southridge Golf Club.

Have been a bit discouraged with the Chinese Herbal Medicine Protocol lately as it definitely is not working as well as it did the first couple of months. I have been having a couple of days a week were I simply don’t feel well at all, tired, achy, absolutely no energy. In all fairness though I have to admit until real recently I haven’t been taking the herbs real religiously due to becoming discouraged with my health again and the cost of the herbs being quite expensive and I felt I couldn’t really afford them at times. Plan on getting back on a very regular regimen of the herbs which I have done for the last week and will have my labs rechecked at the beginning of September and go from there.

Labs Rechecked

Had my three month f/u labs drawn again. The elevated liver enzymes improved slightly from last time;

ALT of 181 compared to 297 in Feb. and AST of  110 compared to 105 in Feb.

Results were faxed to Dr Zhang and I’m awaiting his advice.

I did not have the Viral Count repeated at this time since my medical insurance will not pay for a repeat check of the Viral Load this soon and the $500 cost of this lab test would not change the way I feel or the prognosis in any way. Have felt a bit better than I did in Feb. Still have a day or two each week were I feel tired, run down and achy but not as severe as back in Feb. Plan on continuing current herbal protocol until I hear Dr. Zhang’s current recommendation.

Golf Lesson

It is more satisfying to be a bad player at golf. The worse you play, the better you remember the occasional good shot. ~Nubar Gulbenkian, 1972

I'll shoot my age if I have to live to be 105. ~Bob Hope

My swing is so bad I look like a caveman killing his lunch. ~Lee Trevino

It took me seventeen years to get 3,000 hits. I did it in one afternoon on the golf course. ~Hank Aaron, 1971

I took my first golf lesson this past Saturday. I started hacking at the ball a little bit last summer, played a few rounds at a local 9 hole public course, all par 3’s which makes it a good beginner’s course to practice on. Of course, the golf pro on Sat. changed everything about my game, he’s trying to change my grip, my setup, and my swing, I’m sure he’d even change the way I tie my shoes if I would let him…lol..God knows I can’t argue with him since I have become increasingly frustrated as I’ve tried to teach myself to play. Without a doubt it has to be the most difficult of all things which look easy! I’m sure anyone who has tried golf for the first time would agree with me. I was definitely encouraged by this weekend’s lesson though as I went out and hit the ball better than I ever have on Sunday, though admittedly that’s still not saying too much. Played 18 holes on Sunday and scored a 100. That’s not as good as it sounds though, since we played on the aforementioned course which consists entirely of all par 3’s. I shot a 45 the first time throught the nine hole course and a 55 the second time through. Perhaps it's true what my step son always says, "9 holes of golf is fun but 18 holes is work". At any rate, my dad and I signed up for a series of 4 lessons so the plan is to take a lesson every Saturday for a month…..I can definitely see how one could become addicted to golf.

Dire Paranoia

It’s the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine.

Discuss here.

The Honeymoon Continues

I learned a new word today. My betrothed said it is Eternanublious ;-)

Ukulele Festival This Weekend!!!

This is enough to make one want to attend the New York Uke Festival this weekend. This is a sentence I never thought I would use, this guy is a virtuoso of the ukulele!!
Seriously, check out this video clip of a version of George Harrison’s, “While My Guitar Gently Weeps”, it’s actually quite impressive…Two Thumbs Up…..

Honeymoon

  I’ve been so busy of late I haven’t really had time to post here or anywhere else. The last few weeks have been awesome! On March 12th in a very moving, inspiring, heartfelt ceremony performed by Bishop Rosamonde Miller my love Linda and I were wed. Thank you Linda for always being there for me, sharing our lives together has been the happiest days of my life.
  Linda and I just returned home from Arizona this past Sunday. Watched some MLB Spring Training games at Scottsdale Stadium. We enjoyed the sun, ballpark, and hotel swimming pool, it was a great way to welcome the Spring. The highlight of our trip was however, without a doubt, the trip we took a little further north to Sedona, Arizona. The hiking we enjoyed among the massive red-rock formations was stunning in it’s beauty. Simply awe inspiring.
  
  

www.flickr.com RegentLynx's Sedona, Arizona photoset

Led Zeppelin Legends Reuniting?

First noticed this on Ross Halfin's blog, Page and Plant to reunite? I know a lot of Zeppelin fan's who don't care that much for Page and Plant's subsequent work but I really loved No Quarter: Jimmy Page & Robert Plant Unledded, Walking Into Clarksdale et al.

Viral Count Has Improved

The rest of my labwork came in on the 15th. These results were more positive, interestingly enough my viral count has lowered considerably since beginning the herbal protocol. I had a viral count of 12,600,000 before beginning the Chinese Medicine protocol and the labs just received on the 15th show a viral count of 4,540,000. Began taking the Cordyceps this past Friday, so it’s too early to tell if it will help the aches and pains or not? They certainly didn’t help today, as I had another day of not feeling well. Still staying positive though, I have a lot in my life to be thankful for.

Three Month Follow Up

  Phone consultation with Dr. Zhang today, three month follow up consultation discussing lab results and symptoms. He reported that my liver enzymes have elevated since last checked in September. In September labs showed an AST of 61 and an ALT of 95. Labs drawn this past Tuesday, Feb. 7th show an AST of 105 and an ALT of 297. He said it was impossible to tell if this was a pattern of fluctuation which existed before we began the herbal protocal or not since only one lab sample was tested prior to commencing herbs. He wants me to retest labs again in May.
   As far as my physical condition goes I reported to him that the first two months on the Chinese Medicine the results were phenomenal an almost complete disappearance of the symptoms but over the last month or so symptoms have worsened again and become more frequent. They still are no where near the level of severity they had progressed too back in September but lately I’ve frequently had days like today where I simply don’t feel well, tired, achy, malaise. He advised me to continue the protocol of HepaPro Group 1, Olivessence, and Herbsom but to discontinue HerbLipido and replace it with Cordyceps.

Feels Like Spring

The weather here locally was absolutely beautiful today, a bright, sunny 70 degrees. Adding to the light hearted mood of the day is the fact that I’m feeling stronger again, after going through the recent downturn in vigour, feeling much stronger again now.

This blogger's essay is spot on and I'm glad this was said, Is Suicide Redundant In Kansas?

Wedding Plans

Despite a few struggles the last few months I am an extremely happy man. The date has been set, on March 12th I will marry my beloved Linda. Though words can’t truly convey my happiness the following poem by Gibran really hits home:

Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself.

Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;

For love is sufficient unto love.

And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.

Love has no other desire but to fulfil itself.

But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:

To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.

To know the pain of too much tenderness.

To be wounded by your own understanding of love;

And to bleed willingly and joyfully.

To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;

To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;

To return home at eventide with gratitude;

And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.

Waiting For The Wheel To Turn

I don’t know if it’s because my body has been a little run down from my recent bout with the flu or not but this last week has brought a relapse of the symptoms I’ve always associated with the Chronic Hep C, extreme fatigue, achiness, muscle cramps. It wasn’t anything to keep me from being able to work this week  but still a bit depressing and frustrating. This week is the first time I’ve felt this bad, since beginning Dr Zhang’s recommended protocol. I felt really wiped out today and mainly just rested. I always resent these periods because it makes me feel as if I wasted a day off from work when I don’t have the energy to be doing anything fun or constructive but instead just lay around all day in a funk. Oh well, I’m sure the Wheel will turn and I’ll eventually be feeling better.

“Remember all ye that existence is pure joy; that all the sorrows are but as shadows; they pass & are done; but there is that which remains.”
--Liber Legis-Cap. II, v. 9    

My Existence This Past Week

Well, I think we've definitely established that the Modern Chinese Medicine I've been taking will not help protect against the flu virus. The last 4-5 days is the sickest I've been from the flu in a long time.....can do nothing but head back to bed now...Poor Linda :-( ...she's had to put up with me and I'm so tired and grumpy I can't even stand myself.....Thank goodness she's been here for me this week though, she has made sure and pushed plenty of fluids and provided me with what little I've had the appetite for......Thanks Hon, I love you!!!

As the New Year approaches I am feeling very optimistic for the future. I am more and more convinced my decision to forego combination interferon/ribavirin therapy and instead pursue Modern Chinese Medicine was the right one for me. I continue to sustain my new found sense of well being and high energy levels since beginning Dr. Zhang's Chinese Medicine protocol. Recently I had a conversation with a nurse who happens to work in the same medical clinic as I do. Even though she underwent a successful course of interferon treatment last year she told me that if she had to do it again she would not pursue interferon treament. She said this even though she was one of the lucky ones who did acheive a negative viral response with interferon treatment. Despite this she was emphatic that she would not make the same choice again because the effects of the interferon and ribavirin were so ravaging. Why would anyone make such a statement? One factor in the decision whether or not to pursue conventional combination therapy is the consideration that one should be aware that a negative viral response after interferon treatment does not mean "total eradication" of the Hep C virus! Most of the patients after "successful" inteferon therapy will still have HCV in their liver. Relapse can, and does in some cases happen at a later time.

Please understand, I am in no way advocating just sticking one's head in the sand and ignoring their HCV infection. Rather, a comprehensive approach is needed to treat chronic viral hepatitis, including proper herbal treatment, rest, and nutrition. I do believe it's possible using Modern Chinese Medicine to halt the progression of the disease and restore general health.

Blessings to all in the New Year.

The Nativity Of The Divine Light

Christmas Eve, sometimes called Holy Night, celebrates the ageless story of the birth of Christ. As the divine light of Christ incarnates in a tiny babe in a lowly manger, to us this story represents the nativity of the divine light within the Gnostic soul, the coming of the royal light into the lowly frame and darkness of this world. When the outer world grows cold and dark it is even more necessary to keep the spark of divine light kindled and bright.

Though the light shines in the darkness, the darkness can not itself give birth to the light. The earth would be naught but cold damp clay without the life coming from the light of the Sun. Even so, the spirit which gives life comes from somewhere else, a mystical dimension beyond time and space. The alchemists assure us that “nature unaided always fails.” Without divine assistance in the Hermetic art the alchemist can not achieve the goal of the Great Work, the Philosopher’s Stone. In the same way, our human natures can not transform our ego personalities without the assistance of that spark of our Divine Self and the birth of that consciousness within us........more

Wishing you and yours all the best this Holiday Season. May the New Year bring you much Light, Love, and Health.