Wedding Plans

Despite a few struggles the last few months I am an extremely happy man. The date has been set, on March 12th I will marry my beloved Linda. Though words can’t truly convey my happiness the following poem by Gibran really hits home:

Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself.

Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;

For love is sufficient unto love.

And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.

Love has no other desire but to fulfil itself.

But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:

To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.

To know the pain of too much tenderness.

To be wounded by your own understanding of love;

And to bleed willingly and joyfully.

To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;

To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;

To return home at eventide with gratitude;

And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.

Waiting For The Wheel To Turn

I don’t know if it’s because my body has been a little run down from my recent bout with the flu or not but this last week has brought a relapse of the symptoms I’ve always associated with the Chronic Hep C, extreme fatigue, achiness, muscle cramps. It wasn’t anything to keep me from being able to work this week  but still a bit depressing and frustrating. This week is the first time I’ve felt this bad, since beginning Dr Zhang’s recommended protocol. I felt really wiped out today and mainly just rested. I always resent these periods because it makes me feel as if I wasted a day off from work when I don’t have the energy to be doing anything fun or constructive but instead just lay around all day in a funk. Oh well, I’m sure the Wheel will turn and I’ll eventually be feeling better.

“Remember all ye that existence is pure joy; that all the sorrows are but as shadows; they pass & are done; but there is that which remains.”
--Liber Legis-Cap. II, v. 9    

My Existence This Past Week

Well, I think we've definitely established that the Modern Chinese Medicine I've been taking will not help protect against the flu virus. The last 4-5 days is the sickest I've been from the flu in a long time.....can do nothing but head back to bed now...Poor Linda :-( ...she's had to put up with me and I'm so tired and grumpy I can't even stand myself.....Thank goodness she's been here for me this week though, she has made sure and pushed plenty of fluids and provided me with what little I've had the appetite for......Thanks Hon, I love you!!!